On Sunday, my wife took a taxi to the provincial capital alone to change shoes for our eldest daughter. The shoes were bought not long ago and broke. I stayed at home with my youngest daughter. My youngest daughter caught a cold. Since the COVID-19 lockdown was lifted, many people have caught colds. The symptoms are different from previous colds, with headaches and dizziness. At 3 pm, I went to the clinic with my youngest daughter for injections. Snow removal a few days ago caused a herniated lumbar disc to flare up. It was only recently that it was basically healed. My back is a little uncomfortable. My mood has become very bad. The relationship between my wife and I has become very abnormal. Work and life are not going well, and there is a lot of financial pressure. I have to use up more than 200,000 yuan on my credit card every month. She has never understood me. She only knows to ask me for money when she is short of money. She has never cared about me a word. I feel bone-chilling cold. Now I am more lonely and cold-hearted than ever before. In the evening, I was alone, bought some skewers and opened a bottle of white wine. I was lonely and drank alone. I drank two small glasses. I got up twice in the middle of the night because I felt uncomfortable. I hope life can get better.