The day before yesterday, because I spoke in the community group about the encroachment of the community parking space. She was scared and said that people who have GA in the group will be invited to have tea. I was very angry. I was discussing the problem normally. Why did they invite me to have tea? ! We started arguing and talked about the past when I was invited to have tea. I was angry. I didn’t break the law. The last tea drinking incident was nothing! It was as if I had committed an unforgivable crime. I was so sad. No one outside understood me, and she didn’t understand me when I got home! I was out of control and it was so painful. No one in this world can understand me. After a big fight, I drove out. I wanted to climb Mount Tai. At that moment, I really wanted to jump off the top of Mount Tai and end this painful life. I drove more than 200 kilometers to the Mount Tai scenic area. The parking lot was full, so I drove back. We should be the closest people, but we can’t say a word. How sad. There is no common language at all, which is my most painful thing.  The next day, I was still so depressed that I drove out. With nowhere to escape, I chose to book a room at a hotel. Home Inn booked the cheapest room without windows. I stayed in the room for a whole day. I wanted to drink, but I didn’t. There was no end in sight for my life. I didn’t know how to spend the rest of my life. I didn’t know how to get along with her. It was too painful. Full of love, but no common language, no common views. No understanding at all. Love was worthless at this moment.