The night before yesterday, I opened a small cookie and wanted to eat it. When my wife saw it, she burst into a burst of negative energy and scolded me like she was scolding her son. I could no longer tolerate my anger and it exploded. Another family war broke out. She began to attack me viciously. She began to talk about the unsatisfactory aspects of the family. She scolded me, scolded me for being useless, scolded my mother, scolded the children. She dug up every little thing from the past. In short, it was all my fault. I was completely desperate for her. I drove out. She originally asked me to pick up the children, but I said I would not go. She scolded for a while, began to collapse, and cried for me to come back. My heart was completely cold and broken. In the past two years, life has become more and more unsatisfactory. Bad luck happened one after another. Starting from the child’s depression, basically nothing good has happened to the family in the past two years. The child suffered from severe depression and attempted suicide several times. He cut his wrists, took medicine, and inhaled gas. Fortunately, he miraculously recovered in the end. It is said that he recovered, but in fact he was not completely cured. Occasionally, when he had an attack, he would still cry, take medicine, and cut his wrists.  Her temper became very strange, her emotions were very fragile, and we did everything to please her, fearing that something would irritate her. Perhaps it was the curse of the devil, but my little daughter didn’t know when she started to suffer from facial paralysis. As parents, we turned a blind eye and didn’t even notice it. Facial paralysis is a disease that can be cured if it is discovered and treated early. Unfortunately, it was too late. Although we did a lot of rehabilitation treatments and went to Jinan, Tianjin, and Beijing to invite experts, the experts in Tianjin asked us to buy mouse nerve growth factor outside the hospital, which cost more than 10,000 yuan, but there was no effect. It was obvious that we were deceived. My wife found out that someone in the local area used folk remedies and applied plasters. It felt a little bit effective. But I was still not optimistic. Perhaps it was influenced by the family environment, the originally well-behaved little daughter began to become less obedient, not listening to her parents’ opinions, and liked to make a lot of noise and unreasonable. Her academic performance also became very poor. My wife often had emotional breakdowns because of this. She couldn’t accept her child’s grades. She often scolded her daughter. I couldn’t stand her scolding my daughter, and we often quarreled over this.  When my eldest daughter just got depressed, I was extremely depressed. I didn’t even have anyone to talk to. So I went online to chat and sought comfort in a group, seeking ways to get rid of it, and even looking for ways to buy potassium cyanide, hoping that my family could leave this miserable world together. As a result, my miserable experience did not get their sympathy, but pointed the finger at the CCP. I refuted them, saying that my suffering was caused by illness, what does it have to do with the CCP? I followed their words and said that I also wanted the CCP to be destroyed, but what does my illness have to do with the CCP? Another time, they made remarks about overthrowing the CCP, and I said, stop talking nonsense, one devil falls, ten thousand devils stand up, the Chinese people have no hope, they are an inferior nation. It was these two points that were caught by some beasts with ulterior motives and screenshots were taken. It happened that my safety awareness was not high at that time, and I actually chose to make my mobile phone number visible to friends. So, I was successfully invited to have tea at my door. Now I think that I actually have no intention of opposing the CCP at all, it was just an emotional outburst under pessimism and despair. In addition, I don’t think my remarks about the Chinese people are anything special.  I am very disappointed with most Chinese people. I love them so much and feel so much pain. I think it is nothing for me to curse them. If some people think this is a heinous crime, I have nothing to say. My family is in a very bad financial situation now. I am the only one in the family who works and earns money. Since the beginning of this year, my salary income has been declining month by month. Up to now, my monthly income is less than 10,000 yuan. I have to pay more than 3,000 yuan for the mortgage every month, and I have borrowed a lot of credit cards. The monthly cost of swiping and tossing credit cards is more than 2,000 yuan. The actual disposable income is only 5,000 yuan. There are four people in my family, and there are elderly people. It is too difficult for me. Even so, as long as we live a good life, we can barely get by. However, my wife is a pervert. In this state, she still does not restrain her desires and buys whatever the children want. The children make noise all day because they are disobedient. There is chaos and war all day long. I really can’t see a glimmer of hope. I don’t know if our tomorrow will suddenly collapse. Some time ago, she went to Jinan to play with her children and was invited by a film and television company to record a program for the children.  I went to the audition yesterday, and they said my child was chosen. The salary was 5,980 yuan. It felt like a lot of clichés. My child has severe facial paralysis, and his image is definitely not suitable for TV. However, my child was very happy, so I didn’t refuse and just thought of it as spending money to go out and have fun. To this day, I am really pessimistic and desperate. I can’t see where tomorrow will be. I’ll just live one day at a time. I’m in pain, but I can’t tell anyone. This is the most painful thing in the world. Tomorrow, my wife is going to take our little daughter to Peking Union Medical College Hospital to see a doctor for facial paralysis. My company has something going on and I can’t leave. They will take a taxi and go by themselves. I hope there will be new gains this time. Peking Union Medical College is said to be great. If Peking Union Medical College Hospital can’t cure it, I will be completely desperate.